it’s been a weird year.

I promised one last post before this year ends so here we go. This year has been unpredictable and weird to say the least and I have this newfound love for playing roblox ( and watching tv shows that get cancelled after a season ) so it was in no way boring for me. Life went on, it didn’t stop even though it felt like the whole world was on pause for a while – like a literal break. I just wanted to sit back and reflect on this year and how much I’ve actually changed as a person.

First off, I’m gonna talk about education and I promise you this is the last time we do that here. Obviously big things are expected from me. Honestly, I don’t want to study anymore. The system is broken. I do not believe that a list of predecided chapters can educate you or prepare you for the real world and when I talk about following dreams – no one takes me seriously because even though I’m not comfortable enough sharing what my dreams and ambitions are, let’s just say it’s not a 9-5 job or anything conventional. Leading a life based on someone else’s perception of life is not what I signed up for so I keep fighting every day.
For me, leading a good life equals sense of fulfillment. Recognize your own inner voice.
Things I wanted as a child and things that I realize I need now in order to be healthy and content are so much different. I’ve learned a lot from school but in no way does it equate success. I feel like us graduates are struggling most because we are expected to function overnight. Parameters of success set by society are certain materialistic items, certain jobs and certain levels of degrees. Success is subjective. It isn’t traditional.

For me learning has always been more important than making money but in no way I’m saying money isn’t a necessity – it obviously is and we all know it. I’m just saying that you are your own teacher. Whether you choose to drop out or continue your education it should be your choice because at the end of the day, your mental health comes first no matter how many narrow eyes you get. That being said I’m not influencing anyone to drop out and I know it isn’t even that easy convincing your parents but seriously please don’t do something just because you feel like you HAVE TO.

There’s Ted Talks by Melanie Whitney, Megan Schwab, Andrew Morris and Alex Bernadotte that I’d like you all to listen to. It’s on this subject and they’ve been really eye opening for me.

That was it for the education bit, now let’s talk about changes ( not the album by Justin Bieber ).
Talking about my ever evolving personality, I’ve had realisations about myself this year that I don’t think wouldn’t have happened if the lockdowns didn’t happen. I didn’t step out of my house AT ALL in 7 months and obviously that has affects on a person and for me it was actually more positive than negative.

Honestly I don’t know what else I wanna talk about right now because it’s been pretty low-key and Taylor Swift got me through it all. My resolution this year was not to let any toxic people dull my aura or let men influence me in any way and I definitely think I lived up to it.
Next year, I set a very hard goal for myself. I struggle with self acceptance and self love a lot so I just want me to not be too hard on myself. Learn to love myself and put myself first more because the only person that’s going to come to my rescue is myself and I learned that the hard way.
Anyway. I wish you all a very HAPPY NEW YEAR. One day at a time, guys. Hang in there.

Love,
Milly.